Rino came over to my school to fetch me the other day. We went Causeway Point for lunch at Mos burger. He complained that he is about to be broke when he pays for my meal. I offered to return the money to him but he replied saying that he was just joking.
Things were so different between us. I felt we behaved like strangers, he is no longer the same Rino i know. The last baton that knock me to my senses is when he says he no longer feels the same for me as he feels i treat marriage like a game. Even if i leave Carlo, he will not be able to see me in the same light. He no longer loves me...
What an irony! Now, I feel the strain in me and Carlo's relationship too. He complains that I always reject his advances in making love and it's not when I want it and he will want too. He feels that the move I tried to make in telling him tonight will give him special treat is treating him like a begger.
Besides this, I really cannot stand the way Carlo communicates sometimes. He really doesn't know how to talk to a woman, how to put across a message in a nice way even when you are being critical. Last night, after me and Carlo's talk, I feel that all the more we should not be together. I even googled for divorce proceedings information.
Perhaps in the end, I will be single and happy.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Plaza Sing
I went shopping with my sister to Plaza Sing today. Bought a maroon polo top for Carlo at $10, a black zipper skirt suitable as work wear for $10, and a purple short skirt at only $5! All from Cotton On which is having 50% off regular price sale.
Whenever I think of Plaza Sing, I can't help but to think of Rino. His office is really near Plaza Sing and we met at Plaza Sing for lunch several times and watched movies at the Cathy. Today, I had a missed call and thought he called me from office. Undoubtedly, I immediately sms him to ask if he called me but no, he didn't. Though he did add on in the same sms to say :""By the way, how's your day?", I was so disappointed that I just replied fine and what happened during work.
While I was shopping with my sister, I was thinking to myself: If I were him, I would have given up at this stage. I can't blame him for treating me like that. I can only blame myself for my indecisiveness. If only I have the courage to leave Carlo with no second thoughts...
The other day, I tried sms Rino in a tone I always used, "Monmon very hardworking wor. Dear just took a nap. :P" He did not reply. I guess this time, it's really over.
Whenever I think of Plaza Sing, I can't help but to think of Rino. His office is really near Plaza Sing and we met at Plaza Sing for lunch several times and watched movies at the Cathy. Today, I had a missed call and thought he called me from office. Undoubtedly, I immediately sms him to ask if he called me but no, he didn't. Though he did add on in the same sms to say :""By the way, how's your day?", I was so disappointed that I just replied fine and what happened during work.
While I was shopping with my sister, I was thinking to myself: If I were him, I would have given up at this stage. I can't blame him for treating me like that. I can only blame myself for my indecisiveness. If only I have the courage to leave Carlo with no second thoughts...
The other day, I tried sms Rino in a tone I always used, "Monmon very hardworking wor. Dear just took a nap. :P" He did not reply. I guess this time, it's really over.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
The Little Nonya
Have you watched "The Little Nonya"? In the show, Xiang Yun who acted as Yue Niang in her older days remarked that in life, you have to make choices between the one you love and the one who love you most. In the end, she gave up her love and chose a man who love her more. Of course, she had a blissful marriage and her husband treated her well. However, I cannot understand tha agony of being separated from your love.
In one of the episode, Yue Niang in her young days rejected her love. The background song sung "爱是一种需要, 却不一定要得到. 只要你觉得快乐就好. " How can you be happy when you can't be with your love one? Can you really give your blessings to your love one even when you know you and him will never be together?
I missed Rino so much. Without Carlo by my side, my heart goes all out to Rino. But this time, Rino is determined to end our relationship. I feel so lonely. He doesn't call me anymore. Everytime I give in to my mind and call him, I feel worst off than in the beginning. His aloofness to me makes me shiver with an unfamilar coldness. I told him I wanted to watch a few movies with him. But comes to think of it now, I should stop contacting him. I should stop thinking about him. I should just end this right here, right now.
P/S: There was a sequal to the ever-popular show at http://www.mobtv.sg/CS/forums/thread/5746.aspx written by a fan. You should go read it. It's really interesting and ever more exciting.
In one of the episode, Yue Niang in her young days rejected her love. The background song sung "爱是一种需要, 却不一定要得到. 只要你觉得快乐就好. " How can you be happy when you can't be with your love one? Can you really give your blessings to your love one even when you know you and him will never be together?
I missed Rino so much. Without Carlo by my side, my heart goes all out to Rino. But this time, Rino is determined to end our relationship. I feel so lonely. He doesn't call me anymore. Everytime I give in to my mind and call him, I feel worst off than in the beginning. His aloofness to me makes me shiver with an unfamilar coldness. I told him I wanted to watch a few movies with him. But comes to think of it now, I should stop contacting him. I should stop thinking about him. I should just end this right here, right now.
P/S: There was a sequal to the ever-popular show at http://www.mobtv.sg/CS/forums/thread/5746.aspx written by a fan. You should go read it. It's really interesting and ever more exciting.
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